My Early Experiences With Porn

Ok, I admit it. Sometimes I look at internet porn. I'm not compulsive about it, nor do I look every day, but, trust me, I've seen my share of it. In the pre-internet days, I occasionally looked at it, but only the hardcore stuff -- Playboy is too tame and a waste of time in my opinion.

I first discovered porn when I was about nine or ten years old. On one of our overnight stays with my great aunt and uncle, I found a mildly racy magazine in their stack of magazines when I was looking for something to read. No one would bat an eye looking at this magazine now, as it only showed mainly dressed women in shorts and low cut tops, with the odd, blurry topless picture now and then, with nothing whatsoever below the belt. It was only slightly more titillating than looking at certain issues of National Geographic, which I also perused with fascinated interest.

Not too long after that, I discovered my brother's stash of Playboy and Penthouse magazines, which he usually kept between his mattress or buried under several other "innocent" magazines. Again, these magazines, though more explicit than my great uncle's magazines, wouldn't raise much of an eyebrow today. Though the women were usually completely nude, they'd frequently have a knee strategically raised to hide the crotch area, and even when that area showed, the pubic hair was airbrushed out. And one never saw a pose where the woman had spread her legs. But for a kid growing up during that time, this was hot stuff for me.

I would usually wait until no one was around, then sneak in there to have a good look. I was very careful not to get caught doing this -- I'd make sure to place the magazine back in the exact same spot in the stack or under the mattress, even to the point of noting how many inches from edge it was when I found it.

I thought I'd died and gone to heaven, when he finally brought home more explicit mags where the women posed with their legs spread open. I remember this one, Nexxus, that began to approach the modern presentation of porn. But even this one, the women were always by themselves, posing alone. Never did my brother bring home a magazine showing anyone actually engaging in sex.

Once I became sexually active, my interest in looking at porn tapered off. Why bother to look at it when I was doing it? I've sometimes used porn mags and videos with a partner to spice things up a bit, but for the most part, it's all old hat for me.

Tell me about your first exposure to porn.